You Really Had To Do This

You really had to do this
You really had to lie
Really had to break me
Just to make me want to die

You just had to say those words
And had to touch me that way
Had to make me feel the things
That I was always afraid to say

You really had to use me
You really had to lie
Just to see the tears fall
From just another guy

You really couldn't be real
It had to be a game inside
Really had to damage me
More than what was ne

And I'm aware I'll never be okay
I know I'm not quite sane at all
But you really had to make me feel this way
When all you wanted was to play

And one day I hope you know
Just how many tears streamed my cheeks
The ones that felt so cold
That made me want to let go

You really need to know your place
And get the truth of all these lies
I really fell in love this time
Just to hurt me once again

And I know you never thought twice
When you lied and said she was gone
And I know you never felt emotion
When you knew I found it out

It wasn't anything big to you
Just another ho
I was just another face
Someone you didn't really know

And now I have these titles
Ones your friends have made me earn
Yet none of them seem to know me
So in the end you're going to burn

You never really thought about me
It was only what made you feel good
Nothing made you feel guilty
Even though you made me want to die

You took that last piece of hope I had
And threw it down the drain
With every little ounce of sympathy
I'll always know it wasn't me

And when she thinks she's won you
I hope she realizes that you've all lost
Because in this screwed up world of games
There's no evening the score, only the creation of more lies

And someday I hope you see
That I'm the best thing you ever had
And that I'm the only one who never played
That stupid little game of yours

When she hurts you don't come to me
Because I'm stronger than that
I loved you more than you deserved
And I wanted to hold onto you forever

You really had to do this
You really had to lie
Really had to break me
Just to make me want to die

One day I'll see you and smile in your face
Just to let you know I won this stupid little race
And I'll be okay someday
When the world goes on pause...

From this day on I know I'll be numb
And I'll cry on sight of your pictures
Every little touch will race through my mind
And I'll keep thinking someday I'll be ne

I threw it all away because I thought knew you
But I had far more hope for you than what you are
And you turned out to be exactly what they said
No one lied to me in the end but you

It wasn't you who got hurt
Never was you who cried
Nothing ever made you think twice
Nothing made you want to hide

But everything made me want to die
And everything makes me want out of this life
I want to erase this game of lies
And hope that someday I'll be me

My skin will be bare
And everyone will see my scars
I won't deny it happened
I'll just say it's a bunch of lies

And when you pass me and you smile
I'll know that inside you regret it
Because you'll never have a girl like me
Who cared so much, she didn't care that it didn't come free

When the pale in my face overtakes me
And the red in my cheeks are cold and teary
I'll keep repeating to myself that I'll be okay
Someday, somewhere, I will be okay

You really had to do this
You really had to lie
Really had to break me
Just to make me want to die