Fake Perception

There's no way
I will ever fake perfection
Because I can't seem to get close to it
at all.
I'll never be able to stay balanced.
Every day I'll stumble on my own words.
I'll never be the smallest
But that's quite fi ne with me.
Trust will never come easy for me
because it's been broken into so much.
Every night there's a new nightmare,
a flashback,
or a simple scare.
Alcohol,
I know,
will trigger these.
And if I can go through just one day,
without any tears at all,
that'll be one of the biggest successes I ever feel right now.
My doors,
they will always stay locked,
at all times.
Anytime I hear a scream,
I'll cringe in fear.
For the rest of my life,
I will probably always write&
hundreds,
if not thousands more.
Because that's me.
I never understood the concept of perfection.
Why would someone want to be that way,
when they could be indescribable&
Personally, I'd rather be di fferent
and not like anyone else.
So what's the fun in faking perfection?