Dear Daddy... (2002-07-20 18:58)

I always thought that love would be reminiscent
But then I realized it's only hiding what I'm missing
I was missing my whole childhood
I was running away from my pain
If I knew how to stop and say, "just leave me alone"
I'd know myself to be the stronger one you see
But instead I was running on a train
I was lying across the deep ocean
The ocean full of pain
And over flowing with my tears
I always wanted back exactly what you took
But when I was a child you left me there alone
You smiled when you hit me
And you laughed when I cried
You yelled even more when I said..

Chorus:

Dear daddy is that you
Or how I should have been?
Was it me who was always wrong
Or were those bottles coming to you
Dear daddy let me go
You still hurt me so
I'm still running from you
And although you say nothing now
I'm still crying myself to sleep
Wondering why you wanted me
I took all your anger inside me
I left it in my soul and buried it
And one day when you said something
I just had to say..

Verse 1:
I know you hate me
And I know you'll never care
So what the hell's keeping you
From taking care of your pain
Go ahead and kill me
And let me live alone
I don't want to deal with this home

I ran into my room
And shut the door behind
I wondered what would happen
If I took the time,
To write down a poem
On which it said you were..
The meaningless devil

Repeat Chorus:

Why did you hit me?
Why can't I be happy?
I want to go home
To the place worth living
But all I see is tears
And all this hate in here

Repeat Verse 1:

But daddy won't you tell me,
Why you were never here
When I sat and wished I had you
You were never near
But daddy you never seen it
And god knows you didn't care
So I sat there trying to make myself...
disappear

Repeat chorus:

Daddy your pain is still killing me...